Blink

for Glenn

words fail
to describe
the feeling you give me
i'm more than happy
more than flattered
more than overjoyed
…if you do know what i mean
i guess you do
how else would you
have the urge
have the will
to read on
to see
how this crappy poem ends?

heart beats
to give life
to this feeling i have for you
i'm more than anxious
more than excited
more than willing
…i'm making less sense now
i guess you caused it (hehe)
how else would you
explain the awe
elaborate the intentions
exemplify the love
to read on
to believe
how hard it was to make this for you
…crappy as it seems

November 13, 2000
9:24 pm
made on the pc

Who are you?

i love the way you walk with your head up high
i adore the way you make my frown turn upside down
you make my shitty day the best one ever
how do you do it? have no clue. what's your secret? have no clue.
why do you make my insides flutter? beats me. am i pathetic? as ever.
away..you go. smile to frown. up high to bowed real down. what the bleep! is wrong?
lots of space to fill.

of light

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but lots of it gone to waste. because of me and my gloomy life. my wretched life.
but you make me smile. and then wonder why.

8/2/2k
made on the pc

Back-UPS

I'm in a know-how country
in a see-none ville
in a shut-out house
waiting
searching for you.

nonetheless
I don't seem to
smell you
or your peppermint shampoo
you're out...I think.

should I stay to wait
where time is
non-existent?
should I stare bluntly
into your empty wall?

I wallow in your fears
listen to your tears
droplets on my palm
blank walls all over
in your shut-out house.

I've given up
out of your abode...
I see people staring
at me and my disarrayed hair
they somewhat glare.

but I don't care...
or give a damn
about what these people
think of me
or my disarrayed hair.

I turn to leave
..and I don't look back
I run, blinded by the rain
then I bump into you
...I fell.

by jam
july 24 2k
made on the pc

Homeless

I'm packed
I'm going
To a place
Full of hope
And of pain
Why go?
Why feel?
I absolutely
Have no
Clue
Just why.

Come close
Go deep
And find
What you seek
What you need
What you crave for
Be assured
Be swallowed
Follow me
My lead
My destined path...

july 23 2k
made on the pc

Men and boys, -dolls and toys

created with Pumpkin

Oh, men of steel
You melt like butter upon
A pan on fire
But the boys of wood,
They're reduced to ashes when burned
Thus making them burn no more
-and the melted steel forms a puddle
-in which a young girl's porcelain doll lies
-oh, it weeps, it feels scorn
-and the dust rises up--up into the air
-flicks of them on raggedy ann's yarn-curled hair
-but it feels no anguish, no despair...

july 21 2k
from a slip of paper

Realize

Life…
We love, we learn
To breathe, one breath
We indulge, we're hasty
One lip, a frown
All alone, all lonely a boost, put down
Let loose, be still
No prob, no thrill…
A life, a love,
We live…

-march 2, 2000-
-12:10 PM-
-harmony classroom-
-from tigger notebook-

No Goodbyes

also for Enrico

--you'll be gone…
in a blink of an eye…
who knows the future
what's in store for you--
who'll be there
to save lives--
to cause laughter
and mayhem, too--
--you'll be gone…
and now I cry--
twist in anguish
…an now I die--
'tis be true…
--you'll be gone…
I feel for you…

-march 2, 2000-
-9:14 AM-
-harmony classroom-
-from tigger notebook-

You

Goodbye--
Who knows when we will
Meet again

Waitin' for a day
That I fear
Will never come

But nothing stops
A restless, hopeful mind
…from dreaming

-february 22, 2000-
-10:16 AM-
-harmony classroom-
-from tigger notebook-

Dillusional

Looking up I see the clouds
…but where are you?
glancing down I see the asphalt
…but I don't see you
searching…still lookin'…lonely…
I still haven't seen you
Look at me, here I am-
Still waiting for you

-february 21, 2000-
-5:00 PM-
-quadrangle, risers-
-from tigger notebook-

Growers

for Enrico

This thing in my head
Those words that you said-
Even though uncertain
…still… it did not stop me
From bursting with joy

Everyday
It's like I see you--
For the first time…
…like a song stuck in my head…
It never fails
I'm still swooning

I'm in a sea of emotions
Under the blazing sun--
Bathing in my own esteem…
…thinking…hoping…
What if…just what if--
You were here--with me

-february 21, 2000-
-12:00 NN-
-harmony classroom-
-from tigger notebook-

Untitled

The ebb of the tide has caught me
Brought me far…far away from shore
Dragged me deep down into the abyss of my existence
I died-
I did not survive

Then I woke up
I was in a different bed, on the right side
I got up and tripped…I stubbed my toes
I fell-
I did not get up

As I laid there
I caught myself glancing into your deep-set eyes
You carried me…straight into your arms
I lived-
And I did not regret it

-february 17, 2000-
-9:34 AM-
-harmony classroom-
-from tigger notebook-